This will be it

No I won't ask you for flowers and teddy bears not that they don't attract me but because i would get them on my own.. what I would be needing from you is sometimes to be alone , like literally alone .. once in a while i am going to need to sit alone , away from you away from people and it wont indicate that I hate you or having second thoughts , but because i need to think .. not about you , not about some past or the distant future , just to think about where ever my head wanders , i am going to spend a day with just a coffee in front of me by the window of a local coffee shop and to not asked about why I was there .. I'm going to need to write poems and stories which do not belong to me or someone I know .. Yes ! i am going to need all this instead of some glittering cute stuff !

Transformation !

Those who know me personally , understands why me being with kids is a total awkward situation :D For those who don't , guess what "I am a teacher" :D

                  It was sudden , ofcourse like any of the things that happens in my life :p But well , it happened and all of a sudden I was a class teacher of 15 plus students , all around me , all day long !!

Just imagine , a girl , never too connected with kids , now in this situation.. Naah , don't get to the conclusion this soon .. It's been over 20 days now and there isn't a day I want to give up .. No, i don't , and I have no idea just why ?this was not what I have dreamed of but still I am happy with this !

When the kids reach out for you like you're some kind of Fairy Godmother , a knight in shining armor or their saving grace , like they think you have the solution to every problem of this world , not knowing how badly you are stuck and confused in your own life , how much of a loser you really are .. they just .. look up to you for everything ..

And I still wonder why , but this makes me happy , that you matter to someone , and then who cares if the person is a perfect one you've always dreamed of or an imperfect little kid you never knew you'll spend five hours with :)

Happy Women's Day Anyways

Celebrating women's day in a world where women still get molested , abused , insulted , blamed for her actions , judged , accused and raped even in a marriage ..
I just hope I don't live till the day women start getting ashamed of being a Lady !