Prisoners !!

Do you remember the day you told me about how we all are caged up somewhere and we all are prisoners by our own will? And I rolled my eyes and I wouldn't believe you.. I said, 'how can we be chaged up by our own will?'  It was senseless for me.. And I wouldn't agree, so you sighed and stated quietly, 'You will understand one day'..
Yes, I do now, as I listen to a particular line from my favorite song, "You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness", and it feels like the same thing you told me, addicted or caged by your own will, they both are the same,
just the words are different..
Yes we all are addicted to certain things, certain things we know might hurt us, might wreck us, but we don't let go, because we are caged..
We never let go because we are caged not by anyone but our own selves, prisoners of our own, it never occurs to us that this cage unlocks from the inside because we fear to fly, fear to be free, fear what if it stops hurting, fear of living without the addiction and fear of losing a part of us!!

Some Nights .. !!

Some nights are different , just like tonight is different , they make you fight within yourself more than usual , no matter how bad you try to stop yourself they end up ruining your self strength , so by the time this night ends , you have done those terrible things that you weren't supposed to do , they make you hate yourself just a little bit more and no matter how many times you try to calm yourself by saying 'just a few more hours and this night will be over' , it makes every single bone in your body break bit by bit , slowly , cruelly , bitterly ..