Space between the past and future !!

11:45 on the dial, 15 more minutes before leaving another year behind.. A year filled with so much stuff, like a box overflowed with items, trash and treasure all mixed up, tangling up with one another..
Standing at this pace of time, living those moments, not sure I am looking back or just planning for the future or might just analyze what happened where and how!
Last year, this same moment, all I did was preparing myself for leaving my teen..Trying to feel like a big girl just to secure my own self..But had I really succeeded ? And I get to admit now that securing yourself with walls around you only makes you suffocated so why wear an armor all the time? 
Well, apart from all these philosophic thoughts, this year gave me a lot to be thankful of, Yes! I don't have regrets this year, I blessed of things I never dreamt of, I did things never imagined or planned on, I changed those little things in me I never thought I'd ever change so yeah..It's not just only that depressed stuff, but the blessed ones too..
It's about time in a few more minutes, before my family comes to wish me, before my cell phone starts bursting out, before that feeling of not getting a wish from any old friends surrounds me, here me, with my 20th year packed and wrapped up with a smile, saying that bundle a goodbye hoping to never take it back out again, stepping into my 21st, all my heart and my head screams yes.. "Hold on! You can survive this too "..