Dear Sweet Person ...

My Dear Sweet Person ...
                 Lately I have understood that over the course of life different people will tell you different things. Sometimes they are good sometimes bad and you eventually learn to deal with them. But the things you will listen on a daily bases are the ones that are the most usual yet the most confusing for you . It will take a whole lot of your strength to finally get there , but you will as I always say "eventually" :)
                            People will tell you that you think of yourself a lot more than you actually are. They will tell you that you brag way more. They will keep reminding you to stop telling everyone about the most awesome things that you are capable to do whether it's writing silly blogs , making illustrations , sketching or covering songs that you actually love to do. The will often tell you that you are not that good enough and they are sick of looking at your name again and again on their social media feed.
                So My Sweet Person , let me tell you what you gotta do. You keep doing what you do because trust me no one can do it like your own self. You keep sharing your little accomplishments to the world because why not ? You try and try to come up in the lime light so you might get a little chance to achieve something. Not fame or the big dreams in particular but something , something that might feel good to you. You keep grabbing opportunities that for people are lame and not worth it but you do. You keep sharing your amateur work with people who might give you a push to get a little bit up.
            My Sweet Person , they are not bad people. They are not jealous of you and you do not actually bother them. Its just they do not get you . They do not understand like you do not understand quantum physics and mathematics. Its not their fault , its not yours either. The world my sweet person, the world works this way :) And one day you get there and you realize that you have survived.. "eventually" !
                                                             Love,
                                                  Girl with a broken pen  

Tell me please

What do you do ?

when it seems like a Déjà vu ..

What do you say ?when things turn out exactly the same way..

Tell me !

What happens when you let your walls down 

and everything happened before comes back like a boomerang around !

When you hear those words , and realize

everything around is the same 

except for the person saying it this time !

Tell me ! Help me out !

What do you do ?

when that look in his eyes you have seen before ,

What do you say ?

when just after you start believing ,

it shatters like a crystal piece , again !

Do you let go ? just like before

or do you fight and hold on hard this time ?

Do you fall on your knees just like before ?

or do you stay strong ,

have your pride and be the girl you've worked so hard for ?

Does it make you a bad person if

you say to yourself 'I Knew' or 'I Told You So' ?

Tell me what do you do ?

Tell me what do you say ?

Remember

Remember ?
In the beaming light of that beautiful moon,
Walking over the cold pavements ,
When those roads were a little too dewy , bit scary ,yet soothing..
Something struck through our hearts
Not sure if it was just me or you too
But It felt like this..
Like a magic, like a meant to be thing,
Like that crappy thing they all talked so loud about,
Like that fairytale kinda thing girls were crazy about and was nothing but a bullshit for me..
Remember how numb we felt ?
Because none of us knew what it was, 
And none of us expected that for whole different reasons..
Remember?
All those crazy things we did , that we never believed in ,
Wishing upon stars , wishing over a birthday candle , praying when the clock struck 11 11 ,
Just for a chance to let this magic stay forever .. 
Remember ? Because I do !

Anti-NewYear Resolution Post

 New Year , new resolutions.. It's about time we all start getting frustrated about the whole new year new me thing .. I don't know if it's just me or there are a whole lot of people out there.. Social media is all filled up and literally over flowing with memes that actually quite honestly feels so true to me , like seriously it's funny , ain't it ? I've been laughing out loud since last night :D
But seriously , why would anybody want to make a new plan every year and become or try to become a new person ? I would never .. I've worked hard on mysef for the whole year, I got hurt , I gained , I lost , I made mistakes and sacrifises and it all made me a better person at the end of the year , I would never give it up for a lifetime , why would I change myself in the name of new year's resolution only to start all over again ?
No I won't, I want to continue growing , I don't want things to change on every new year , No I can't..
And for a moment if you think it in that way, even making a resolution doesn't work for us , do they ? You don't get choices when something terrible happens , you have to go through it.. And if something beautiful, something extraordinary happens to you ? Would you stop and say to yourself Hey ! That was not included in my new year's resolution ? No you don't.. You embrace it and go with the flow ! And that is the right thing to do !!
I want to write more ! But I won't because people might think that this is the most negative thing but hey I would disagree.. For me , being able to live it upto fate and not worry about what's going to happen is the most positive thing ever !

This will be it

No I won't ask you for flowers and teddy bears not that they don't attract me but because i would get them on my own.. what I would be needing from you is sometimes to be alone , like literally alone .. once in a while i am going to need to sit alone , away from you away from people and it wont indicate that I hate you or having second thoughts , but because i need to think .. not about you , not about some past or the distant future , just to think about where ever my head wanders , i am going to spend a day with just a coffee in front of me by the window of a local coffee shop and to not asked about why I was there .. I'm going to need to write poems and stories which do not belong to me or someone I know .. Yes ! i am going to need all this instead of some glittering cute stuff !

Transformation !

Those who know me personally , understands why me being with kids is a total awkward situation :D For those who don't , guess what "I am a teacher" :D

                  It was sudden , ofcourse like any of the things that happens in my life :p But well , it happened and all of a sudden I was a class teacher of 15 plus students , all around me , all day long !!

Just imagine , a girl , never too connected with kids , now in this situation.. Naah , don't get to the conclusion this soon .. It's been over 20 days now and there isn't a day I want to give up .. No, i don't , and I have no idea just why ?this was not what I have dreamed of but still I am happy with this !

When the kids reach out for you like you're some kind of Fairy Godmother , a knight in shining armor or their saving grace , like they think you have the solution to every problem of this world , not knowing how badly you are stuck and confused in your own life , how much of a loser you really are .. they just .. look up to you for everything ..

And I still wonder why , but this makes me happy , that you matter to someone , and then who cares if the person is a perfect one you've always dreamed of or an imperfect little kid you never knew you'll spend five hours with :)

Happy Women's Day Anyways

Celebrating women's day in a world where women still get molested , abused , insulted , blamed for her actions , judged , accused and raped even in a marriage ..
I just hope I don't live till the day women start getting ashamed of being a Lady !